“I love him”
“You what ?” My brother,Dan shouted loudly while frowning on me. He was surprisingly shocked. Some other visitors in the cafe were trying to find out where the yell came from looked at us as they’d already found it,astounded of what we were both chattering.
“Oh,my God. Keep your voice down.” I whispered. I pinched his arm,then he was groaning and wiping on his muscular right arm as it’s getting red.
“What the heck are you doing ? It hurts for sure,” he moaned. Afterwards,he drank a glass of lemonade served on the table in a single gulp.
“I’m sorry. I never meant to. I just wanna tell you what I feel. I’ve been keeping it as my own secret for months. I can take it no more,” I replied. Dan smiled,grinned, and giggled. What he behaved seemed to be annoyed for me.
“Hey,why are you grinning ? What’s so funny about it ?,”
I sighed. He kept chuckling instead of noticing me.
“Ahh,why don’t you start helping me out with this deal instead of laughing at your pretty cutie little sister ? I’m desperate of this crush,brother. It’s slowly but surely killing me,” I cried out cheerfully,then covering my face with my both palm of hand.
I was frustrated of something called love. I literally needed someone to share with, to utter everything. Apparently, my generous gorgeous big brother could be the one.
“Fine,but how could you ? You said you don’t like him at all,especially phisically his face, like grumpy in every single moment.” Dan was astonished. He picked another crunchy french fries and directly get it into his mouth.
“Totally,I did. Not anymore from now on,” I grinned. “How come ?” He kept questioning while chewing the munches we ordered.
“Let me have a chance to tell you everyhing,okay.” I took a deep breath,drank my strawberry milkshake with chocochips as the topping on it,and started uttering.
(December 2010, An Int’l Airport, waiting for my brother’s arrival from China )
I ran to the International terminal,enthusiastically. Smiling widely and cheerfully. I was looking forward for today. Today was the exact day when my best brother came back home from China. He went to China to study. He just got a scholarship for studying to China for 2 years. It was such thing what he really wanted so fricking bad. He strove for it,truly struggled effing hard with other competitors to get it. Praise God,finally he got the scholarship and he totally deserved it.
It showed 11.55 on my wristwatch. I saw plenty of people seemed to feel the same like I did. Waiting for someone they were longing for years. Back and forth,felt so eager to meet somebody they’re waiting for. There were also some people preparing such a big surprise for someone whose coming was what they waited for. “That would be very nice,” that’s what I said in silence. What they did just led me to feel like, “Oh My God. I can’t wait to see him. I miss you,brother. Like hell.”
I heard noise behind the arrival gate,sounded like people chattering. I felt nervous. My heart was racing. The gate was opened.
“Aaaaahhh,” I ran into him,hugged him tightly. I did literally miss him. “Thanks God,you’re coming home. I really miss you,brother.” I whispered. I gave him a tighter cuddle than before for a long time till he complained.
“Ashley,okay. Enough. Please,I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe,” he sighed. His breath was panting. “Okay,okay.” I released him,then giggled at him.
“Hey,what makes you crazy ? hug me super tightly till I can barely breathe. “ He kept complaining while tiding up his outfit.
“Nothing. I just miss you,brother. Like hell,” I went on. I stared at every single part of his body wondering if there was a change. His straight hair,his wide eyes,pointed nose,slight lip,and other parts. No significant change. He just looked slimmer. I wonder what meals he ate when he was there.
As I missed him a lot,I asked him everything such as what things he did there, what time he woke up and went bed,what he ate,how many friend he got, who his roommate was, and so many other questions inside my mind. It had been a while I hadn’t talked to him,been joking with him,been laughing,together. Thanks Lord,he was still the same as he had been. While I was laughing with him, there was a man running into us. A straight hair guy with brown complexion, pointed nose and quite thick lip bringing pretty lots of luggage was coming into us.
“Hey,Dan. Sorry for waiting.” He shouted.
“Never mind. It’s not a long time,though. By the way,Alfred this is my little sister Ashley and Ashley this is my friend who was lucky like me to get a chance to study to China,Alfred.” My brother introduced me to him. I shook his hand and smiled very widely and cheerfully but he didn’t smile at me in return. He looked indifferent and innocence. That was how our introduction began and the first impression of me at him was annoying.
(December 2010,Sharing session with my brother at spare time)
“Watch out,brother !” I yelled as two packs of corn snack and two bottles of cola thrown at him. He pulled to other side and nagged, “You nuts !”. He goggled, I giggled. He was reading magazine upon his bed and listening music on iPod when I flied the snacks at him. I jumped to his bed and take a seat right next to him. While tearing the top of snack,I questioned. “Brother,the friend you introduced me yesterday was not apparently friendly.” I chewed the crunchy corn snack. “Why do you think so ? He’s truly nice,caring,and smart. “ He went on.
“Really ?”
“Sort of” He replied.
“But still,he looked annoying to me and I hate him.” I closed the conversation,finished reading and grabbed cola to quench my thirst.
(January 2011, Studying mathematics at class)
“Luna,can you show me how to solve this problem ?” I gave my classmate sitting next to me some math problems. Luna had been my classmate for 2 years and we’re close each other. She was a beautiful Chinese descendant,smart,talented and sporty. She always got good grades in every single subject and did love badminton and soccer.
“Never mind.” She answered. A few minutes later...
“Beep.. Beepp,” my cell phones vibrated. ‘One new message’ statement appeared. Unknown number sent me a message. I wonder who this stranger was. I clicked open.
“Hey,Ashley.How are you doing ? J
Sorry to disturb,tell Luna that I’ll pick her up after school. Thx.
Alfred.
What ? Alfred ?! I got shocked. How can he know my number ? My brother must give him without my permission.
“Luna,who is Alfred ?” I questioned my classmate who was working out math problems.
“Alfred ? You know him ? It’s my cousin. He just came back from China a couple days ago.” She explained enthusiastically.
“Yeah, I met him at the airport when I was waiting for my brother. But anyway, is your cellphone off now ?”
“Nah,it’s active. Why ?”
“Your cousin just texted me that he’ll pick you up after school today.” I replied.
I wondered why Alfred texted me. Luna’s cell phone was active but why he didnt just text her instead. I questioned my self what it meant till the class’ over.
(February 2011,Taking rest in my room)
I felt unwell. No energy. No appetite. No desire to do something but laying on bed. My brother just headed for work. I took a termometer inside the aid box and had it into my mouth for some minutes. The red line on it showed number 39. Figuring out how high my temperature was led me to be weaker,powerIess. I thought I had to do something to make things better. I picked my mobile and called my brother right away.
“Brother,I’m not getting better. Please,take me to the hospital. “ I begged gently with a low voice.
“Ashley,are you okay ? What are...” I could’t hear his voice and I didn’t know what happened next, unconscious.
I found my self on an unfamiliar bed. The room was pretty quiet and silent. A complex water compund hanging upon me channelled certain substances through my pulse. I felt so much better and fresher. I tried to wake up and looked for something to eat. Something surprising me happened. I saw Alfred sat near my bed watching television. He suddenly turned his head at me as I made some movements.
“Hey,you wake up.” He greeted,with smile on his face.
“Alfred,you’re here ? where is my brother ?” I asked shortly.
“He’s been outside for a few minutes ago to have lunch. Don’t worry. He’ll be back soon. Do you need something to have ?” he smiled again wider.
This was the first time he smiled on me and it touched my heart. His smile was so relaxing and adorable. His voice was like an angel, it soothed me. I saw something beautiful when he smiled at me. The spark. A very beautiful spark on his eyes. I’d never seen this before to any other guy even my own brother. There were thousand of gorgeous guys in the world but it was just him having the spark. The enchanted spark apparently saying “Hey,I’m here for you” drove me crazy. My heartbeat was racing all at once. I wonder if it’s something called love but how I could have a crush on someone grumpy all the time. Honesty, behind his grumpy face, he’s truly caring and nice. But seriously,this was unbelievable and I’d never expected this feeling.
“Hello,Ashley.. Are you okay ?” he woke me up from my daydreaming by waving his hand in front of my face. I got surprised and became speechless.
“eehhm.. ehhmm.. I’m okay” i got nothing to say. I was ashamed for accusing him as a grumpy guy. I covered my face which got blushing with my two hands. I prayed to Lord. “Lord,thanks for sending him for me”
“Hey,listen. If you need something,just call me okay.” He smiled again, the most pleasant smile with the spark on eyes that I’d never seen. Yes,I thought I loved him.
(Present Day,March 2011,Continuing brunch with my brother)
“So,that is how the story goes” my brother grinned.
“Yeap,brother. I think I love him. Because of you,my life has changed. Thank you for the love and the joy you bring...” I sang happily like my world was full of Alfred. I was just too happy to express my feeling. I couldn’t stop smiling.
“I’m so glad that you’re happy but I have some information about Alfred that you should know.” My brother went on.
“What is it ? I want to know more about him. Please,tell me now !” I insisted. My curiosity was just too high too handle.
“My friend,Alfred has already a girlfriend,dear. She is his classmates from the city he belongs “ my brother explained.
“Seriosly ? Are you kidding me ? “ I inquired. I couldn’t believe this.
“Sure,even he’s going to marry his fiancee next year. He just proposed her on the day right after we came back from China. You know why he looked grumpy when he met you at that day ? It’s because he was nervous. He was about to tell his girlfriend about his lovely planning”
This was again unbelievable. Knowing that he’s gonna marry was such the worst news I’d ever heard. I felt like being struck by lightning. The happily joy I felt was getting disappeared and quickly became a deep disappoinment. I hated that I loved him so fricking bad. I just couldn’t forget the spark from his eyes I saw when he smiled at me. The spark telling me he was coming for me was gone now. What an annoying spark.
“Brother,I want to be fainted” I shared.
“Ohh,not again !!!” my brother yelled.
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